Hazel was invited to a sleepover party at Anna's house cousins: Dezy and Annie were there. Hazel waited anxiously all week for this day. She was excited. I think that she probably thought hanging out not actually sleepover without mommy and daddy. Most parents would be nervous for the child at a sleepover making sure they will have fun, they miss parents. I knew Haze would enjoy herself. But not me. I enjoyed her dressing her up in a lion costume and painting her face. She looked so cute. Poor baby she had a fever the night before, her back teeth were coming in so her nose kept running, which smeared her paint on her face. She looked adorable.
Dropping her off was just sad. After coming home, mom and dad were finding any excuse to see if we can go pick her up. But we both new if she's having fun we didn't want to take away her enjoyment. I've always had Haze by me the only other time she spent the night away from me was when I had Alyvia.
It sounded as if she had a blast. She was hyper had a pillow fight, watched a movie, made cookies. Woke up early like usual and had pancakes.
Lala couldn't get to sleep not having Haze by her she woke up early to. I figured we probably would be able to sleep in. Not the case. Dad and MOm missed Hazel so much. WE love you Hazel and so proud of you! We are super excited that your back. Your my pee wee wee ...wee wee bird... Tweeety tweety twinkle toes.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Understanding Others
I came across this quote.. "You never understand a person until you consider things from his point of view"- Harper Lee
This is a line we all use from time to time, "I know how you feel." But honestly, do we really know how someone feels? Even if you have been in a similar situation as someone else,, such as having a family member pass away, being the head of a company, or a parent of a newborn, every person reacts differently. But even if you don’t “know how they feel,” you can understand their thoughts and feelings. However, if we do not see someone’s point of view, how can we understand them? Why curse out the slow car in front of you? They might just be having a rough day, but you have no idea of knowing that. So next time you are upset at someone, try to realize what it means to understand a person before jumping to conclusions about them.
As a mother you sense when your kids feel uneasy before they even come to you and say, I don't feel well. This morning Hazel wakes up and says mom my teeth is hurting I have an Oweee. I check her teeth couldn't see any sores. Later after watching the way she acted. She wasn't in her jumpy fun Hazel moods as usual. running a little slower than usual, but still very happy. I asked Hazel if could look at her mouth 1 more time. Yep, there's a tooth popping through. Hazel been such a great girl, trying always to be nice but sometimes was just a tad to much and needed to hit Alyvia to help release some of her aches. After telling Hazel that's not what we do, it's not nice. Let's find another way to get your ache out. Instantly she says Heveanly Father allalal! That's a great idea Haze but we must say it in a more reverant way. That seemed to help her. Hazel is learning 5-6 letter words now. Her biggest word today that she learned was GLOOMY. Struggled a little with the my she used to prounouncing it as my. I have been having struggles with her math. Adding numbers. She doesn't quite get it but I am not going to give up. I need to looked at as a challenge. What other creative ways can I get her to show interest in learning adding. PO I will use him. He's a great stuff animal polar friend of Haze. Hazel, if you don't want to play with me I'm going to have PO join me. After watching that My focus and funness was on Po. She politely asked if she could have a turn. We then had wonderful time teaching each other how to add.
Alyvia sleeps 3 times a day. The first thing after waking up from her nap is a little bit of milk. Of course, Hazel perfers that she's spents the first few min with her. Everytime this happens. Alyvias first reaction is a smile at Hazel almost as if "you heard me awesome mom is on the way" then she starts looking around for me. But Hazel has her in arms singing LALA Lollipop!! or Lala how you doing? good. yah... Alyvia 2nd impulse is screaming as loud as she can as if she's hurt or something totally dramatic I say. Hazel then lets her go and says mom Lala wants chow! After Lalas chow she is happy as can be willing to let Hazel scream at the top of her lungs.
One of the cute things I've enjoyed with Lala these past few weeks is her soft sweet laughs. She laughs and laughs when Hazel jumps on the bed and falls on her butt.
This is a line we all use from time to time, "I know how you feel." But honestly, do we really know how someone feels? Even if you have been in a similar situation as someone else,, such as having a family member pass away, being the head of a company, or a parent of a newborn, every person reacts differently. But even if you don’t “know how they feel,” you can understand their thoughts and feelings. However, if we do not see someone’s point of view, how can we understand them? Why curse out the slow car in front of you? They might just be having a rough day, but you have no idea of knowing that. So next time you are upset at someone, try to realize what it means to understand a person before jumping to conclusions about them.
As a mother you sense when your kids feel uneasy before they even come to you and say, I don't feel well. This morning Hazel wakes up and says mom my teeth is hurting I have an Oweee. I check her teeth couldn't see any sores. Later after watching the way she acted. She wasn't in her jumpy fun Hazel moods as usual. running a little slower than usual, but still very happy. I asked Hazel if could look at her mouth 1 more time. Yep, there's a tooth popping through. Hazel been such a great girl, trying always to be nice but sometimes was just a tad to much and needed to hit Alyvia to help release some of her aches. After telling Hazel that's not what we do, it's not nice. Let's find another way to get your ache out. Instantly she says Heveanly Father allalal! That's a great idea Haze but we must say it in a more reverant way. That seemed to help her. Hazel is learning 5-6 letter words now. Her biggest word today that she learned was GLOOMY. Struggled a little with the my she used to prounouncing it as my. I have been having struggles with her math. Adding numbers. She doesn't quite get it but I am not going to give up. I need to looked at as a challenge. What other creative ways can I get her to show interest in learning adding. PO I will use him. He's a great stuff animal polar friend of Haze. Hazel, if you don't want to play with me I'm going to have PO join me. After watching that My focus and funness was on Po. She politely asked if she could have a turn. We then had wonderful time teaching each other how to add.
Alyvia sleeps 3 times a day. The first thing after waking up from her nap is a little bit of milk. Of course, Hazel perfers that she's spents the first few min with her. Everytime this happens. Alyvias first reaction is a smile at Hazel almost as if "you heard me awesome mom is on the way" then she starts looking around for me. But Hazel has her in arms singing LALA Lollipop!! or Lala how you doing? good. yah... Alyvia 2nd impulse is screaming as loud as she can as if she's hurt or something totally dramatic I say. Hazel then lets her go and says mom Lala wants chow! After Lalas chow she is happy as can be willing to let Hazel scream at the top of her lungs.
One of the cute things I've enjoyed with Lala these past few weeks is her soft sweet laughs. She laughs and laughs when Hazel jumps on the bed and falls on her butt.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Judge
Judging is one of the hardest thing I often work at. Everyone has there own weakness that needs to be tuned up. Judging happens to be on top of my list. It is a hard habit to break, but I know if I work on it everyday. The easier it does become to be less judgemental. It's bad to say but sometimes I do not realize that I judged a thing, or someone. It just happens until I step back and realize what I thought. Thoughts, are the main point I'm targeting. It's so happens when you think of things you judge an object if it's good or bad, if it's ugly or beautiful, if your smart or dumb, .. Sometimes I think I might mistaken judge as a choice. Choice is what path you decide for whatever reason, But there's always judgment involved in it. What if I decide Tomorrow I had a choice to either smoke or have a green smoothie. When approaching this I then will look at it in this perspective, Well seeing how much people are dieing from smoking and how craspy their voice gets. It's not healthy. I think I will choose a green smoothie which will benefit my body with soothing energy. Okay I am not making sense here. The end with this section
Judging your partner, thinking of them as being wrong, is but a trick of the ego: “They are immature” or “selfish”, or "not reliable" or "unfaithful" or "afraid of my love", "...".
If you judge your partner from outside the perspective of the Oneness, separate from yourself, how can you really love them? Use your partner as a mirror to see yourself more intimately and deeply and start to feel that you are your partner and your partner is you, beyond any judgment. Begin to recognize and to accept yourself through them. Alot of time when you judge your partners of "Why aren't you this", "I wish they were like this" lalala when you think this way, Remember this is the time to cratique yourself. What, How can I be a better person! What is that I need to work on? Why does that something push my button? Write them down or meditate on it and see why it hurts you. Are you being a tad dramatic? After thinking about these things and working at it to fix yourself and how your viewing it. If it's still a bother. Approach your partner and let him how you been feeling. Maybe it's misunderstanding.When you do approach them DON"T say You you you.... that won't solve an issue it's just adds on and become bigger. Cheers!
Judging your partner, thinking of them as being wrong, is but a trick of the ego: “They are immature” or “selfish”, or "not reliable" or "unfaithful" or "afraid of my love", "...".
If you judge your partner from outside the perspective of the Oneness, separate from yourself, how can you really love them? Use your partner as a mirror to see yourself more intimately and deeply and start to feel that you are your partner and your partner is you, beyond any judgment. Begin to recognize and to accept yourself through them. Alot of time when you judge your partners of "Why aren't you this", "I wish they were like this" lalala when you think this way, Remember this is the time to cratique yourself. What, How can I be a better person! What is that I need to work on? Why does that something push my button? Write them down or meditate on it and see why it hurts you. Are you being a tad dramatic? After thinking about these things and working at it to fix yourself and how your viewing it. If it's still a bother. Approach your partner and let him how you been feeling. Maybe it's misunderstanding.When you do approach them DON"T say You you you.... that won't solve an issue it's just adds on and become bigger. Cheers!
Bobby, Thanks for your hard work, I do miss you alot at home and wish we could spend more time with you . I appreciate your effort of pushing yourself to become a better person! You've come a long ways. I'm so grateful to have a husband that wants and will work on to become better. I know it was hard for you those first year. Hey, I've seen so much growth in you and blessing are always coming our way when we are doing our part! I love you Babe! Just thinking of you right now and looking at our engagement pict that is posted on the our bedroom wall. I got to say you do have a pretty smile! Your wonderful to me! I love you hun! Peace.
Hazel says that your taking her to get rice and beans tomorrow :) She is a cutie. I had Alyvia watch you on a video I'd recorded of you three. She just giggles with a big smile when she heard your voice. Your the best dad for our kids. They love you! Thanks for putting in the effort even when your busy to spend some quality time with our girls.
True Happiness comes from sharing our blessings with others
Monday, October 15, 2012
Hazel
My little pumpkin Hazel-Anne always does a great job of finishing my sentences. Hazel is 2 years old reading at a 1st grade level going onto 2nd grade reading level. My babe enjoys and looks forward to her lessons. She is so brilliant, smart, cute, beautiful. She can count to 1-30, knows her colors, shapes, sequences, opposites. She picks up things so fast. I am so nervous everyday that I won't excel as her teacher because she is such a bright student. She is already smarter than I and she is only 2.
Hazel loves her little lollipop sister. She looks forward to holding her after her naps of course lala cries and cries when she hears Hazel first sing LALA o Lollipop! very loud. Seems after lala has her chow she enjoys having Haze sings loud in her face. Hazel is kindhearted, helps lala out anyway she can. Kisses her and asks if she is okay.
Hazel always says she want to ride the cow! I say no hazel cows aren't fun to ride and you'll fall. She says mom i just have to hold on tight! Yes that's true.
She loves watching bull riding. Mom can i watch bull riding? in the sweetest voice. How can i resist when she says so cute. Hazel is very polite. Says Thank you when she recieves something. She'll make sure you hear her say Thank you even if she has to SCREAM it :)
After putting lala down for a afternoon nap, I came downstairs just to see Hazel on top of the entertainment center with my iphone in her hand watching her pictures and videos that i've taken. She loves pic and videos
the other day we went to trevors wedding. Trevor went over to Hazel to talk. Asked how she was doing. She says, " im Hungry, i want to eat!" Trevor didn't know what to say to that. He went and brought some food which was really nice. She politely Thanked Trevor!
Hazel loves to feel like she is in the conversation. She will laugh so loud and think she is so funny when everyone is laughing at totally something different. These small acts are things what makes me smile with adoration.
Hazel is pretty good about going to bed when asked. I have to hold her and when I do I put as much love into her body letting her know that I love her so much! Anyways, it seems before she completely falls asleeps she asks these question " Pancake tomorrow, go shopping tomorrow?, hold lala tomorrow, what will we do tomorrow i love you mom, I DO!"
Hazel loves to eat! She is a good eater!. she has the best personality!.
Im so grateful for Hazel. She is worth getting up to every morning at 530 and play with. If your respond to her in a nice way she will always respect you. Hazel I want you to know I love you so much! I want to be the best mommy for you! Thank you for being patient especially the first few month since lalas birth. You showed me to compassion, patients, love, you cared for me during these time. You helped me. I appreciate it and I need to express it more often. I will. Thank you love, thank you for choosing me to be your mommy! I got the best girls in the whole world. I love you
MOm
Hazel loves her little lollipop sister. She looks forward to holding her after her naps of course lala cries and cries when she hears Hazel first sing LALA o Lollipop! very loud. Seems after lala has her chow she enjoys having Haze sings loud in her face. Hazel is kindhearted, helps lala out anyway she can. Kisses her and asks if she is okay.
Hazel always says she want to ride the cow! I say no hazel cows aren't fun to ride and you'll fall. She says mom i just have to hold on tight! Yes that's true.
She loves watching bull riding. Mom can i watch bull riding? in the sweetest voice. How can i resist when she says so cute. Hazel is very polite. Says Thank you when she recieves something. She'll make sure you hear her say Thank you even if she has to SCREAM it :)
After putting lala down for a afternoon nap, I came downstairs just to see Hazel on top of the entertainment center with my iphone in her hand watching her pictures and videos that i've taken. She loves pic and videos
the other day we went to trevors wedding. Trevor went over to Hazel to talk. Asked how she was doing. She says, " im Hungry, i want to eat!" Trevor didn't know what to say to that. He went and brought some food which was really nice. She politely Thanked Trevor!
Hazel loves to feel like she is in the conversation. She will laugh so loud and think she is so funny when everyone is laughing at totally something different. These small acts are things what makes me smile with adoration.
Hazel is pretty good about going to bed when asked. I have to hold her and when I do I put as much love into her body letting her know that I love her so much! Anyways, it seems before she completely falls asleeps she asks these question " Pancake tomorrow, go shopping tomorrow?, hold lala tomorrow, what will we do tomorrow i love you mom, I DO!"
Hazel loves to eat! She is a good eater!. she has the best personality!.
Im so grateful for Hazel. She is worth getting up to every morning at 530 and play with. If your respond to her in a nice way she will always respect you. Hazel I want you to know I love you so much! I want to be the best mommy for you! Thank you for being patient especially the first few month since lalas birth. You showed me to compassion, patients, love, you cared for me during these time. You helped me. I appreciate it and I need to express it more often. I will. Thank you love, thank you for choosing me to be your mommy! I got the best girls in the whole world. I love you
MOm
Monday, October 1, 2012
Overwhelming
My greatest goal in life is to be the best mom for my girls. Where my girls can trust in me enough to guide them in the right direction. We can be best friend and they tell me all there secrets and so on. I want a really good relationship with them forever. How can I have that? First, I have to work on my own self. What would I have liked in my Mother? What do I not like what other mothers do. Ask these question work on them and never let it get in the way. Understand you will make alot of mistakes, but don't ever give up. Once you fall get right back up and start again. Take a breather if it's a pretty hard fall and mud has written all over your face. Wipe those tears, stay focus and move forward.
Life is challenging, but challenging is what makes our weakenesses in to strength. If you are always working on the goals to become better or whatever you are working on . The easier it will become.
Today, Alyvia threw up all over me today. Even after giving her a bath right after bed time. I had to get u clean the mess from the bed and get new pjs. During this time I was getting frustrated but there was a part of me that said Keep it under control and don't do anything or say anything stupid that you might regret. It didn't help when Hazel was screaming so loud which was giving me a headache. I wanted to stop and cry. but Alyvia needed to be taken care and Hazel needs to get to sleep. Hazel has a wonderful gift. She is a nurturer and knows when to calm down and always is compassionate with me. Immediately, she says okay mom I am going to bed kisses Lala and looks deep into my eyes and says I love you with a giggle and a warm hug. 30 secs later she was out. I texted Dad while in class cause I was still a little exhausted..
"When you feel like playing games just to socialize with your friends just think of me... I have no friends to talk to. I don't have a car to get out with my kids for fun. I get throw up all over me and no shower for a few days because my husband insists on showering every morning. I have to be creative with things to do because i'm Hazels only friend. I don't have time to go out and do things just for myself. I make sure the house tries to stay clean and the laundry is done. No one ever cares to see how I'm doing but all that doesn't matter because my first glance at Hazel in my arms I wanted nothing more than just to be the best Mom I can for her. I don't care if I don't have friends because my friends are my girls and U. I don'te mind not having a car (yah it's hard sometimes) I'm just grateful for what I have. Sometimes I just want to let the tv entertain Hazel so I can just have my time. I never fall for that because my time is with Hazel. I can go on and on and make excuses and wishes but there never going to be better than what I have now. It just Excuses. I am meant to work hard and live the moments. Moments with my famil. Next time when you feel like playing for fun, know you have it easier but also know I wouldn't trade anything but being a Mom Life is wonderful and I love you!"
After texting this to Dad, I felt better. I was happy where I was at. Hazel is nothing but Amazing!! All I want for her is simply the best. She's is an example to me. I learn from her alot. She has such great energy behind her. You can learn from your own kids. I do! Hazel Thank you for your patience! I love you alot and admire you even at 2 years old! Your my rock
Mom
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