Ms. Alyvia-Mae

Alyvia is growing up TOOOOO TOOOOO fast.  she is already trying to crawl.  She enjoys jumping.   Brings back memory of when Hazel was just a little baby. Alyvia loves bouncy.  If you do it.  Her and Hazel just bend there knees once they know they are being bounced. With a happy face and giggles keep going mom your doing a great job I AM JUST ENJOYING it.    So similar and so cute!!
   Hazel has been calling lala "LOL or young Lady" lately.  Alyvia loves to eat. Now when Alyvia wakes up from her nap and she sees me she smiles.  Then realize i'm not coming for her even if im right next to her.  She cries like someones pinched her.  So dramatic.  What a happy baby she is once mom is over.  Earlier tonight as i was putting the girls to bed.  Hazel kept begging me to hold her while she sleeps.  Wait till Lala is down and I will hold you.  Once alyvia was sleeping I scoot over by hazel and snuggle close to her.  I peek back over to check on Alyvia.  Her eyes were slighly opened and gives me this cutest precious smile.  I smile back and cuddle more with Hazel.  I felt had a feeling that someone was staring at me.  You know that feeling.  It just throws you off.  So i had to check so it can stop bothering me.  Sure enough it was alyvia.  .  I  turned back over because Hazel was almost asleep then I would come back and snuggle with dear Lala.
    Guess who got Jealous!!! Her face just got puzzled and then she let out a cry like someone pinched her or a starving baby.  Of course it woke Hazel up.  MOm please don't go back over.  Okay than haze just hurry and go to sleep.  How did Alyvia Understand that.  Cries Louder.  Come on girl.  I can hear you but you got to share mommy to  you know...  NOPE i wont says lala.. and guess what she got her way  why... because she still a little baby.  You just wait young girl... that day will come when you will have to wait.  Enjoy it while you have it.

Here is another good one.  Alyvia is quite mischievious and smart.  Hazel loves to play with her.  Lala got to the point where she just likes having mom around next to her all the time.  Alyvia I can't do that I have things to do.  things to put away.  Hazel won't hurt you .  It seems as soon as i turn my head I hear a cry.  Hazel hurries and looks at me to see what my reaction will be is to punish hazel... Alyvia hurries and turns her head towards me like come get me mom.  I felt like Hazel didn't hurt her so I let it go, but watched Alyvia extra closely to see what she was doing.  As soon as I calmed her down.  I went away still watching her.  Lala Scream loud out of nowhere with no warning Hazel jumps and alyvia turns her head towards me with a pouty face.  Seriously Lala You are a little stinker trying to get your sissy in trouble.  NO way, I caught you.  Hazel is too good to you!

Fun.. things about our girls

As Hazel was helping me fix perfect food.  She loves that stuff always asks if she can make it.  As she was stirring the perfect food in the cup she yells dad, YOUR AWESOME!  Dad comes in the kitchen and says Yes, you are awesome Hazel.  She corrects him and says.  Dad No!  YOU are awesome! K.  I think it was a good reminder having a 2 year old remind us that we need to give our self credit and accept that we to are awesome.
     
          Alyvia is getting so tall.  She enjoys bouncing, jumping up and down.  Alyvia loves Hazel.    She actually gets really sad if Hazel isn't around to play with her.  One day Hazel was out playing with her cousins and Lala woke up from her nap.  I would call Hazels name,  Lala looking all around every time I would call Hazel.  when she could not find her she had this sad face like where's Hazel.  Alyvia loves Hazel.  Hazel is really good to her sister.

   Dad taught Hazel how to say.. BECAUSE I"m Batman!!  so when ever you say why.. She say BECAUSE i'm batman!  Now she likes to add a little twist to it and tease her dad.. Dad say Why?  She say because I'm Mario!! No haze say your batman.. No I'm Mario.  She is teasing him this whole time.  What a character Hazel is.

Hazel enjoys watching mom do her Hair when I do.  Today,  I see Hazel scrunching her hair.. Hazel what are you doing.  " Looking pretty mom!"  Yes, you do look pretty Hazel.  She had pump alot of bathroom handsoap and was using that to make her hair look pretty.  She was to cute.  Man does that soap REEk.  I'm trying to get rid of it and she did a really good job of it.

  This is Alyvia at 3 months and Haze 2years

I love you Skits and PeeWee

ThanksGiving

There's so much that I am grateful for.  I am grateful for my Bobby and my two Girls.  Hazel and Alyvia are the best girls in the world.  They make me smile and worth living for.   Thanksgiving was great.. Grandma made her usual homemade thanksgiving dinner.  Yes, it was fabulous and Delicious.

   I want to be a better mom, wife, and a person, so I made changes in my life to make me do the best I can to raise my girls.  I am going to carry on a spiritual way of viewing life.  Excercise more meditation and allow more time for growth and learning by quiet time.  I will do my best to look and critique problems in a positive way.  I will make alot mistakes on the way, I will do my best to catch myself and do better.  NO one is perfect that's why pencils have erasers.  I love it.
 My life is not perfect But I am Grateful for the many thing in life.  Hazel has been teething.  She is a piece of cupcake so sweet and kind.  Full of compassion and humility.  I am learning to be more like miss little Hazel. She is a very incrediable teacher.  I learn alot from you Haze.  Thank you for being such a wonderful example to me.  Alyvia,  even as a little infant I can learn from you.  Smile and giggle often.  We are all little babies.  Act as if life is just pure with love and spread love out to others.  Thanks Alyvia for you special treat of admiration.
Dad even when you say you struggle.  I still think you are wonderful.  I learn that life is hard but to never give up.  Keep chugging.  Life is beautiful.

I have alot to learn.. Keeping my ears, eyes, heart open to anything that will encourgage me to be on the right path.

LIfe is just wonderful

Grandma and Grandpa came up for Dezera's Baptism.  I went back down to Boulder with them.  Hazel was pretty excited.  Hazel loves being down in Boulder, It gives her the opportunity to explore the world.  Grandpa gave her a kitten.  It's a soft black kitten.  She calls it "Kitty".  We haven't been able to spend much time with Grandma and Grandpa because they been pretty busy.  Last week they were busy getting the cows and calves together.  They were selling them.  It was a cold last  week, wind was blowing.  This week then went up by Brigham City for a sealing of a friend.  We only got to see them for a morning and then left down to St. George for a few days.  They come back on Sat.  

     I was able to spend some good time with the girls.  Grandpa left her a chore which was to feed his cats on gone while he was gone.  Every morning she wakes up super early I mean 4:30 if im lucky 5.  She just wants to get up and go eat breakfast.   Of course she knows I will., sneakingly wakes up Lala.  Lala smiles and is up till around 8. We go make her breakfast.  Anxiously, ask mom can I feed the cats and dogs.  She knows her routine.  She takes the cat food into the cat dish. Dog food to two seperate dishes, she knows that Allie and Hank won't eat together.  Then she comes back in and gets a few bread and sneaks it to the dog. MOM they are Hungry!    

      I made has noodles and peas,  after talking with her dad on the phone, I go over to see that Hazel ate all the noodles and Left the peas.  Hazel, you need to eat you peas to.  She says "No! mom."  Why not?  her reply "BECAUSE IM BATMAN!"  Batman doesn't eat that! Yuck.  I'm batman mom.  Gosh, can I call Dad?...  This little girl is quite the character.  

   It's been difficult being able to be on top of things these past couple days.  Some How i got really sick and can't really seem to move around well.  I have the shivers and my body is so tense.  I'm not quite sure what caused this, but Dad think it might be the IUD..  I laughed at that one. hahaha.    Well I do my best the best I can.  So far my angels have been helping to get through the day.  Thanks Angels.  

    We miss Dad wish he was able to be here to enjoy the moment we have down here.  We sure love him even when things are going rough for him.  I know that if we just do what we need to things will fall together.  

   Miss Alyvia, happens to be growing like a weed.  A very cute adorable weed.  She is so wanting to crawl so badly.  She reaches for food that might be in your hand.  She will walk backwards in the walker that Grandma has.  She is just a happy baby.  She loves it when Grandpa takes her and plays with her.  She always gives him a big warm smile.  I think that makes his day.  She loves getting in the bath with Hazel.  

Hazel's sleep over

Hazel was invited to a sleepover party at Anna's house cousins: Dezy and Annie were there.  Hazel waited anxiously all week for this day.  She was excited.  I think that she probably thought hanging out not actually sleepover without mommy and daddy. Most parents would be nervous for the child at a sleepover making sure they will have fun, they miss parents.  I knew Haze would enjoy herself.  But not me.  I enjoyed her dressing her up in a lion costume and painting her face.  She looked so cute.  Poor baby she had a fever the night before, her back teeth were coming in so her nose kept running, which smeared her paint on her face.  She looked adorable.
   Dropping her off was just sad.  After coming home, mom and dad were finding any excuse to see if we can  go pick her up.  But we both new if she's having fun we didn't want to take away her enjoyment.  I've always had Haze by me the only other time she spent the night away from me was when I had Alyvia.
  It sounded as if she had a blast.  She was hyper had a pillow fight, watched a movie, made cookies.  Woke up early like usual and had pancakes.
 Lala couldn't get to sleep not having Haze by her she woke up early to.  I figured we probably would be able to sleep in.  Not the case.    Dad and MOm missed Hazel so much.  WE love you Hazel and so proud of you!  We are super excited that your back.  Your my pee wee wee ...wee wee  bird... Tweeety tweety twinkle toes.

Understanding Others

I came across this quote.. "You never understand a person until you consider things from his point of view"- Harper Lee

This is a line we all use from time to time, "I know how you feel." But honestly, do we really know how someone feels?  Even if you have been in a similar situation as someone else,, such as having a family member pass away, being the head of a company, or a parent of a newborn, every person reacts differently. But even if you don’t “know how they feel,” you can understand their thoughts and feelings. However, if we do not see someone’s point of view, how can we understand them? Why curse out the slow car in front of you? They might just be having a rough day, but you have no idea of knowing that. So next time you are upset at someone, try to realize what it means to understand a person before jumping to conclusions about them.

As a mother you sense when your kids feel uneasy before they even come to you and say, I don't feel well.  This morning Hazel wakes up and says mom my teeth is hurting I have an Oweee.  I check her teeth couldn't see any sores.  Later after watching the way she acted.  She wasn't in her jumpy fun Hazel moods as usual.  running a little slower than usual, but still very happy.   I asked Hazel if could look at her mouth 1 more time. Yep, there's a tooth popping through.  Hazel been such a great girl, trying always to be nice but sometimes was just a tad to much and needed to hit Alyvia to help release some of her aches.  After telling Hazel that's not what we do, it's not nice.  Let's find another way to get your ache out.  Instantly she says Heveanly Father allalal!  That's a great idea Haze but we must say it in a more reverant way.  That seemed to help her. Hazel is learning 5-6 letter words now.  Her biggest word today that she learned was GLOOMY.    Struggled a little with the my she used to prounouncing it as my.  I have been having struggles with her math.  Adding numbers.  She doesn't quite get it but I am not going to give up.  I need to looked at as a challenge.  What other creative ways can I get her to show interest in learning adding.  PO I will use him.  He's a great stuff animal polar friend of Haze.  Hazel, if you don't want to play with me I'm going to have PO join me.  After watching that My focus and funness was on Po.  She politely asked if she could have a turn.  We then had wonderful time teaching each other how to add.

Alyvia sleeps 3 times a day.  The first thing after waking up from her nap is a little bit of milk.  Of course, Hazel perfers that she's spents the first few min with her.  Everytime this happens.  Alyvias first reaction is a smile at Hazel almost as if "you heard me awesome mom is on the way" then she starts looking around for me.  But Hazel has her in arms singing LALA Lollipop!! or Lala how you doing? good.  yah...  Alyvia 2nd impulse is screaming as loud as she can as if she's hurt or something totally dramatic I say.  Hazel then lets her go and says mom Lala wants chow!  After Lalas chow she is happy as can be willing to let Hazel scream at the top of her lungs.
 One of the cute things I've enjoyed with Lala these past few weeks is her soft sweet laughs.  She laughs and laughs when Hazel jumps on the bed and falls on her butt.

Judge

Judging is one of the hardest thing I often work at.  Everyone has there own weakness that needs to be tuned up.  Judging happens to be on top of my list.  It is a hard habit to break, but I know if I work on it everyday. The easier it does become to be less judgemental.  It's bad to say but sometimes I do not realize that I judged a thing, or someone.  It just happens until I step back and realize what I thought.  Thoughts, are the main point I'm targeting.  It's so happens when you think of things you judge an object if it's good or bad, if it's ugly or beautiful, if your smart or dumb, .. Sometimes I think I might mistaken judge as a choice.  Choice is what path you decide for whatever reason, But there's always judgment involved in it.  What if I decide Tomorrow I had a choice to either smoke or have a green smoothie.  When approaching this I then will look at it in this perspective, Well seeing how much people are dieing from smoking and how craspy their voice gets.  It's not healthy.  I think I will choose a green smoothie which will benefit my body with soothing energy.  Okay I am not making sense here.  The end with this section

Judging your partner, thinking of them as being wrong, is but a trick of the ego: “They are immature” or “selfish”, or "not reliable" or "unfaithful" or "afraid of my love", "...".
If you judge your partner from outside the perspective of the Oneness, separate from yourself, how can you really love them? Use your partner as a mirror to see yourself more intimately and deeply and start to feel that you are your partner and your partner is you, beyond any judgment. Begin to recognize and to accept yourself through them.  Alot of time when you judge your partners of "Why aren't you this", "I wish they were like this"  lalala when you think this way, Remember this is the time to cratique yourself.  What, How can I be a better person!  What is that I need to work on?  Why does that something push my button?  Write them down or meditate on it and see why it hurts you.  Are you being a tad dramatic?  After thinking about these things and working at it to fix yourself and how your viewing it.  If it's still a bother.  Approach your partner and let him how you been feeling.  Maybe it's misunderstanding.When you do approach them DON"T say You you you.... that won't solve an issue it's just adds on and become bigger.  Cheers!  

Bobby, Thanks for your hard work, I do miss you alot at home and wish we could spend more time with you .  I appreciate your effort of pushing yourself to become a better person!  You've come a long ways.  I'm so grateful to have a husband that wants and will work on to become better.  I know it was hard for you those first year.  Hey, I've seen so much growth in you and blessing are always coming our way when we are doing our part!  I love you Babe!  Just thinking of you right now and looking at our engagement pict that is posted on the our bedroom wall.  I got to say you do have a pretty smile!  Your wonderful to me!  I love you hun! Peace.  

Hazel says that your taking her to get rice and beans tomorrow :)  She is a cutie.  I had Alyvia watch you on a video I'd recorded of you three.  She just giggles with a big smile when she heard your voice.  Your the best dad for our kids.  They love you!  Thanks for putting in the effort even when your busy to spend some quality time with our girls.  

True Happiness comes from sharing our blessings with others