Lala's 3 months Pictures!!

Lala is already 3 months today!   It just feels like a few days ago I just found out I was pregnant and was so excited!! Time sure do fly fast these days especially when you have two wonderful kids that keep you on your toes.  I went to JCPenny to get her pictures taken.  We were able to take Annie with us.  It's so much fun taking that little girl and Hazel sure loved it.  Annie and her are best bud.  I couldn't ask for a better best friend for Hazel than Annahli.
  I have been trying to teach Hazel not to wonder off by herself without one of her parents to keep an eye on her.  She is so independent, wants to explore new things, test boundaries and helping out.  Of course there's always a limit when you go just to far.  We been getting on her case about opening the door and leaving outside without her parents.  It's really hard to explain to her reasons why she can't go outside by herself.  Why it's not safe.  The world has cruel things going on these days.  I just want to keep my girls safe as much as I can.  How do I explain this without saying people would like to do things to you that's not nice..  People take you away.  You won't ever see  mommy or daddy again.  Both of us will be sad.  This is one of the hardest things I have come to teach but it's quite one of the most important one for her to learn.  How do I go about telling her in a way she'll understand?  This is something I am going to research on how other parents taught there little one.  Hazel talks to strangers all the time.  I have to tell her no you don't need to say I love you to someone you don't know.  Be careful to not getting to comfortable.  This is something that I need to learn to teach her in an appropriate behavior.  You can easily say something and a person views a differently.   I need her to know this in a way for her protection.  

 lala was hungry.  I asked the photographer to take this picture.  This is Lala, she does this alot.  I love it!! She wouldn't smile for or look at the camera.  The photographer was focus more on rushing us out rather than spending time making good memories for the customers.  It was awkward.  She kept yelling at Hazel like she was her mom, I didn't like that one bit.

Spreading Light to others.  Word of mouth is more than just spreading rumors; it's also a way to help out others.  Many of us learn something new and promptly sit on the information.  Instead of keeping this new found knowledge to our self why not help out someone else?  Take a new lesson or a skill you have learned and share it, and hopefully a friend will return the favor to you.  

LIFE is Worth living

I remember being frustrated over things about life I couldn't quite understand or how adults couldn't see the way I saw things.  I was very logical person.  I questioned myself alot and wanted answer right way.  Of course, I had to wait.  That's the cool thing, you don't know when +or how your answer will be revealed.  Maybe we just have to go through a little bit more experience before getting the answer.  Heavenly Father does guide us always, if we are willing to trust in him and let him be our guides. Our angels are wonderful beings.   I want to be an angel a pure loving kind angel.  I am learning to be more compassionate and affectionate to my kids.  I think it's important to express intimate love to my kids.  Of course not in a sick way that is just pure wrong!  I Love my girls.  They are the best and I can't help but brag about them.  They are smart, Beautiful, kind, sweet, funny, etc.. I am so lucky to have them.

I am always trying to work to become a better person.  The kind of person Heavenly Father would be pleased with.  I have a lot to become that amazing person, but working on it each day means more than not working at all.
   We all have someone in our lifes be it a sister, brother, or mother, father or even friend and you just want them to have a perfect life.  You don't want to see them struggle, you care for them.  You love them dearly.  They don't realize in extent how much you care for that individual.  You want to take away there worries.  You end worrying about their future. Lalalal so you understand what I mean?  I am pretty sure that we all have that someone.  Anyways, I have a particular one i've struggled with for a few years.  I love this person.  I wanted to help them but realized I was hurting our relationship more than ever.  We are not close as we use to be.  This person probably see's me differently or didn't understand why I did such a thing.  Views me more of a judgmental person.  When That was never my intention.  I was sad.  I've done alot of praying.  Like i said earlier you don't get answers right way, we have to experience things, boundaries.
    I am happy now.  I realize that everyone has a different purpose in life, we mature on different levels.  We don't know their story, what's actually happening.  The things is IT'S not my business.  We all of our choice, we need to respect  the choice and move on.  Always with LOVE and LIGHT.  Never get your feeling to emotion to attached it becomes a wreck.  It's not worth it.  Everyone is a child of God!

It's been easier to be around people now that I have a different view of seeing them.  Judging them not!! who  gave me the privilege to judge or critique someone?   God is the highest person of us all and he did not give me this gift.  I am a mother now, with two wonderful gorgeous talented gifted kids.  1 sweet husband.  My focus is on them prepare myself to lead my kids into independence.  this the gift God gave me to be a mom!  I couldn't have ask for anything better. I am the #1 person that can influence their life so I need to shape up my own life and set example to them.  The world is wicked but I can teach them the right way! GO GIRLS!! pomp pomp.  Ya right can see me being a cheerleader?  hehe.  crazy

When you think your life is a kayos,  or messed up or you don't feel appreciated?  The pasture on the other side is greener than your's take this advice:  water your pasture to make it the green you want it.  work on the things that your struggling with!  We don't know how our neighbors problems are? or the struggles they might be going throught,  We might think they have it easy.  maybe they do.. but maybe they are good at hiding it and revealing positive things.  Be grateful your husband didn't get his legs amputated, and your stuck with 2 sets of twin boys to take care of.  Thank goodness you haven't lost a close love one recently.  Thank goodness you are not in prison for something you didn't do or your house got swept away in a tornado, or hurricane.  Before pointing I wish... Say I appreciate and give thanks!! :) Cheers I love you all

I love you BOBBY, Hazel and LALA  Good night

Love MOM

Lala giggles at Hazel

Today was a wonderful I was holding Lala buzzing her around in the air like she was some kind of bee.  I did this with Hazel when she was a baby.  Lala and Hazel are Identical.  They look, act, smile, giggles the same only difference is Lala has acid reflex and three birthmarks.  As I was buzzing Lala around up in the air ding dong ding dong as she came down.  Hazel comes running onto the bed.  Mom, will you do this to me?  Of course with cute face she had on I took her and did the same.  We went back and forth with Hazel than LaLa... Can you believe my arms are getting weak from the difference in weight.  I enjoyed it.  

  Hazel started to jump.  Lala watches carefully and giggles and giggles when she falls on her bum.  This is one of the first giggles that's lasted for minutes.  I was so happy to experience it what a bond LaLa and Hazel have.  It's so cute.  Hazel continues to jump around to see her little sister laugh.  

Hazel is something.  Very obedient and smart.  She is two years old and knows how to read, and looks forward to Lessons everyday.  You can tell Hazel a word or something and when asked later in a few days.  She knows it.  Hazel has been a wonderful baby for me.  Even though she is older she will always be my little baby Hazel.  Today, she helped me put away Lala's 0-3 months clothes and brought out 3-6month.  She's so mature for her age.  I try my best to enjoy all these moments.  Thanks to this blog I can jawed down these moment and not have my computer crash and loose everything.  

Lala when she wakes up she has Hazel right there in her face singing Lala o Lollipop o laliby o lala.. Of course Lala would perfer waking up to having mommy right there with chow.  Of course, that's not the case. Hazel holding her lala still groggy trying to wake up but being swung around by excitement from Hazel.  Lala now figured out she grabs onto Hazel's Hair and Screams as loud as she can until she gets moms Chow.  Of course after her chow Lala acts like nothing had happens and enjoys having Haze around.  

A stronger Relationship

I am so lucky to have Bobby in my life!  I think about how amazing of a husband he is and of course a father.    Today I express gratitude to my Heavenly Father for bringing Bobby into my life.  Before I had met him, I jawed down on a piece of paper of what I wanted my future husband to be like.  On that paper, I purposely wrote I don't want him to be perfect but I want him to have some sort of weakness that I may be able to help him out and he would be able to help me out.  Of course, Heavenly Father gives him a weakness that I am totally against.  Haha can you imagine that.  I don't regret it going through it,  It had helped me to be more patient and understanding.  I was able to come to an understanding why Bobby went through that and why he did it.  

 My husband could of easily given up on me, and chose a different path that was much easier for him.  That's what I admire about him.  He wanted to be a better person!   He loved me for who I was and wanted what I had. Bobby has always treated me with respect, kindness.  He being able to trust me enough to guide him these past 3 years to see success brought within meant a lot.  Bobby and I work as a team.  First, it was recognizing one another boundaries, learning each others fears, excitement, sucessess, coming to an understanding that blaming won't solve any issue.  Wanting a better relationship requires love for one another.  Seeing that person as an Individual.  Not judging their flaws. 

Bobby and I are always trying to find ways to become a better person.  The cool thing about us is we are able to look within our self and find false and bring it up to see how we can tweak it and work at it become better.  Our goal is to be the best parents for our wonderful two kids and a amazing spouse for each other.  Learning to love those around us without contention.  Of course, it does take practice.  You need to really want to work at to see any result.  It's amazing when your struggled with a certain something and your down at the bottom of the mountain looking up.  What's going through your head is NEGATIVITY, anything to get you not to climb that mountain because it requires work and of course the first few steps are the hardest.  If you truly are wanting to be better you have to take the step and take whatever struggles that come your way.  IF you always remember the result that comes to it you'll just keep going higher sooner than you think you will be in the middle looking down saying " that wasn't to bad!"  Then when your to the top you'll Say " WOW that was an amazing experiment I learned alot That was a piece cake! I can't believe i  thought those things"    once your to the top your back to the bottom starting all over again to something new.  LIFE is wonderful.  My Bobby is wonderful.  

  Bobby text me this cute message: 

"I want to say thank you so much sweetie.  Thank you for your desire to strengthen our relationship.  All the efforts you do to bring a smile on my face really mean a lot to me.  The best things is when I do smile, or whenever you do something for me, it does so much more for me than what you see.  Every smile carries behind it the knowledge that i came from you, and makes me feel not just special, but truly honored to have the gift from such an amazing person.  some that I should be giving gifts to because of how special to me you are.  Everything that comes from you I hold close because you are the closest to my heart.  I love you with the kind of love that never dies.  The kind of love that I hold as my most prized possession.  You are the best person I have ever met, and the fact that I am with you and that you actually want to be with me is a concept too wonderful and I am happier than ever that it is what's happening.  I love you with all my heart.  I have more respect and honor for you than anything else  I have ever known".- Bobby

  This made my day.  It's always nice to get a wonderful kind note that My Bobby appreciates and thinking of me.  Thanks Honey!

I love you

A Healthy Relationship

Sweetie,

I wanted to write this letter to let you know that I am thinking about you and that I love you so much. I know we have our differences and we were made into two different people, but I believe we were made us just for each other. I appreciate all that you have done for me and all that you continue to do to show your love for me. Thank You!

You make me smile when I don’t feel like smiling; you make me happy when I am sad and you bring joy and peace into my everyday worries. For that, I am so blessed to have you as my spouse and I am thankful for you every day.

I cherish each day I can wake up next to you and spend time together, whether it’s a lot of time or a small block of time. I also cherish each night that  we share our bed together; knowing that we can end our night as one holding each other, and letting go of the worries from that day.

I often ask the question, “Can I really be this blessed to have you in my life?” My answer is always a resounding yes because how can I complain about someone as wonderful as you are. You were wonderful enough for me to marry you, so I know that what made you so special back then is still shining bright in you.

On this day, I wanted to thank you for loving me, thank you for putting up with me, thank you for being patient with me, thank you for making me smile, thank you for serving me and most of all, thank you for being the wonderful person that I have come to love so much.

Please forgive me if I have ever done or said anything to hurt you, because I want us walk this journey together in love and a renewed commitment to each other.

I love you

Love Always

Fatty